Be There For Yourself
I have been wondering about this for quite sometime that during the darkest hours of my life why I'm not able to find any support or anyone who can even try to understand my current state of mind. Maybe it's not just you, maybe its them and maybe everyone is just messed up as you are. So hoping for someone to be there by your side would make no sense if everything is just as messed up as your current state of mind is.
There is nothing that we can do when we are trapped in our own thoughts, the ups and downs in our lives has molded us into a better human than we could possibly ever be. It just takes the right perspective to make the other person feel better about their own lives. The only sole purpose of our existence is to fight through the darkest days of our lives and to shine brighter than ever. The come back should always be stronger than your setback because then in that moment you are yourself with no guilt, no shame, no expectations, just the will to make it work and the strength to execute your comeback.
It won't make sense to everyone right now but it will make sense when you are alone in the room with your own thoughts, your anxiety makes you feel weak and when you have no motivation left to do anything productive. You want to talk to people but you fear that they won't understand you and will judge you, you want to hangout but do not want to encounter a social situation. You can feel alone when you are on your own and you can still feel alone when you are in a room full of people.
What matters the most is that how well you manage to hold onto yourself and how hard you try to not fall apart because darling, I know what it feels like to be in such a place. I do know. Struggling to keep a straight face when you know there is a shit load of sadness you've managed to trap inside your soul because to people around you, your emotions won't make sense to them because they have never felt the way you feel right now.
I want you to know that you are going to be fine because after every storm, there is a beautiful rainbow in the sky indicating that you've managed to survive the darkest days all by yourself, without any help. You are doing a great job by trying to keep yourself together even when you have every reason to fall apart. One day at a time, love. One day at a time and I know that you can do it.
I hear you whisper to yourself that you are done and I know that it's hard at times to make it out alive but darling, only you can tell yourself that you can make it out alive. You are your only savior right now, your thoughts, your anxiety are not what they tell you. You are incredibly beautiful and talented enough to not give up. I believe in you and you gotta believe in yourself too! :)
There is nothing that we can do when we are trapped in our own thoughts, the ups and downs in our lives has molded us into a better human than we could possibly ever be. It just takes the right perspective to make the other person feel better about their own lives. The only sole purpose of our existence is to fight through the darkest days of our lives and to shine brighter than ever. The come back should always be stronger than your setback because then in that moment you are yourself with no guilt, no shame, no expectations, just the will to make it work and the strength to execute your comeback.
It won't make sense to everyone right now but it will make sense when you are alone in the room with your own thoughts, your anxiety makes you feel weak and when you have no motivation left to do anything productive. You want to talk to people but you fear that they won't understand you and will judge you, you want to hangout but do not want to encounter a social situation. You can feel alone when you are on your own and you can still feel alone when you are in a room full of people.
What matters the most is that how well you manage to hold onto yourself and how hard you try to not fall apart because darling, I know what it feels like to be in such a place. I do know. Struggling to keep a straight face when you know there is a shit load of sadness you've managed to trap inside your soul because to people around you, your emotions won't make sense to them because they have never felt the way you feel right now.
I want you to know that you are going to be fine because after every storm, there is a beautiful rainbow in the sky indicating that you've managed to survive the darkest days all by yourself, without any help. You are doing a great job by trying to keep yourself together even when you have every reason to fall apart. One day at a time, love. One day at a time and I know that you can do it.
I hear you whisper to yourself that you are done and I know that it's hard at times to make it out alive but darling, only you can tell yourself that you can make it out alive. You are your only savior right now, your thoughts, your anxiety are not what they tell you. You are incredibly beautiful and talented enough to not give up. I believe in you and you gotta believe in yourself too! :)
I need this. You are a truly beautiful soul. I have no words but I hope my feelings have reached you!💕💕
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