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Somedays Are Bearable & Somedays Are Not

We all have had our own share of tension headaches, stress headaches and even migraines. But has anyone suffered or is suffering from depression headaches? Yes, I am suffering from depression headaches, where my mind is numb at times and sometimes the pain is simply unbearable. I have to sleep for that whole day even though I have ton of other work to finish but when there's no energy left I don't have a choice. I am not lazy if that's what you are thinking, I can't help myself and I can't even ask for help. I can't complain about what's happening to me because in today's world everyone expects you to be tough enough to deal with it. I have often heard my Mom telling me that I act weak and I'm simply just pretending to have headaches. I can't keep popping painkillers because it has its own side effects. I am done explaining to people that I am really tired and really don't have the energy to have a conversation but in return they act lik

Hard Times

During this isolation I know that everyone is sick of being at home and have nothing left to do. Some of you might even feel sacred and have anxiety due to the current situation in the world. With everything on a lockdown, people aren't able to meet their loved ones and I know that some of you require that physical touch which gives you assurance that everything is going to be okay. I want y'all to hold on tight as these testing times will be hard on all of us but it will be over soon. Reach out to your loved ones, call them up and tell them that they matter and you miss them. Because doing this will not only bring you peace but it'll help in ensuring you that they are safe. It is indeed a traumatic experience for the ones feeling anxious and having a hard time dealing with this situation right now. I just want you all to know that we are all in this together and it's going to be okay. You got this! You are going to be fine! Sending lots of love and prayers your way❤️

Hold On Tight

This is not your fault, it's not who you are. You need to listen to your soul carefully and don't drift away with the pain. I know you are hurting but please hang in there because you have to make it out alive. There will be a time when this is all over, you will thank yourself for holding on to yourself because you are your only saviour. It is never easy to do it all alone and don't expect that people will stay by your side. No one is going to be with you when you're falling apart on the inside. You can't express how it is making you feel. Nothing goes as planned and it's not your fault to have a little hope and faith that someday it's going to be alright when you know that it is not going to fill the empty space in your life. Please don't let your mind wander off in the dark and push yourself to hurt yourself even more when you're already in pain. Prepare yourself for the worse because losing a loved one is worse than anything because it feels l

Someday We'll Get There

We are all trying our best to fit into these norms laid by the society just to feel accepted in some way or the other. We are so carried away by trying to make everything work in our favor and we just forget to live for ourselves. We forget that we need some time for ourselves, to breathe, to feel, to love and more importantly to just be ourselves. We are constantly living with this fear of not being good enough to people around us, not being able to live up to their expectations. Somewhere deep down we feel that sense of emptiness due to this, we always pretend to be someone who is totally different from the real us just because we want to feel loved and accepted. There are times when we are the real us and we are really happy to be the way we are. So what changes this? Why can't we just be the one who we really are? Is pretending really necessary? Is it really worth your time? Is it going to do you any good in the long run? I'll tell you what, in the long run t

Be There For Yourself

I have been wondering about this for quite sometime that during the darkest hours of my life why I'm not able to find any support or anyone who can even try to understand my current state of mind. Maybe it's not just you, maybe its them and maybe everyone is just messed up as you are. So hoping for someone to be there by your side would make no sense if everything is just as messed up as your current state of mind is. There is nothing that we can do when we are trapped in our own thoughts, the ups and downs in our lives has molded us into a better human than we could possibly ever be. It just takes the right perspective to make the other person feel better about their own lives. The only sole purpose of our existence is to fight through the darkest days of our lives and to shine brighter than ever. The come back should always be stronger than your setback because then in that moment you are yourself with no guilt, no shame, no expectations, just the will to make it work and

You're My Sunshine

There were days when I just didn't feel like getting out of my room, didn't feel like interacting with anyone because my life had become so monotonous that I just didn't know what to do next. My days were so gloomy without you, it felt like everything was so lifeless and I had just forgotten how to smile anymore. I didn't know what it felt like to feel everything all over again. The day you came back, you brought everything with you. You brought my love, my kindness, my patience and more importantly you brought yourself back. When you stepped in, I felt like it was so surreal and for a moment I felt like I was just dreaming. Holding your hand and feeling a chill down my spine is the most incredible feeling to me. You make my life a happier one with everyday that passes by irrespective of the situation because your voice is like the medicine that heals everything that was once broken, your smile takes my breath away because damn man! you're the one that I'm cr

A Complete Diversion

The moment when you feel that everything is going right there is a slight fear that things will end badly. There is nothing you can do to stop those feelings and emotions that make you feel so low about yourself. That crippling feeling of not being able to express how feel because you know you will be judged every moment of your life. You can't seem to decide anything in your life just because your mind is going too far to make things more worse for you. Struggling to get through the days without any social interaction and hoping that a few songs can keep you alive. But they just make you more sad about your current situation. How is that suppose to make you feel better? No one in this world can feel the amount of things that build up in your mind only to realize that it's nothing but pure chaos on the inside. The voices keep saying things to you which make you more worthless. You make plans for your future but they simply remain as plans because you don't have the cour