A Complete Diversion

The moment when you feel that everything is going right there is a slight fear that things will end badly. There is nothing you can do to stop those feelings and emotions that make you feel so low about yourself.

That crippling feeling of not being able to express how feel because you know you will be judged every moment of your life. You can't seem to decide anything in your life just because your mind is going too far to make things more worse for you.

Struggling to get through the days without any social interaction and hoping that a few songs can keep you alive. But they just make you more sad about your current situation. How is that suppose to make you feel better?

No one in this world can feel the amount of things that build up in your mind only to realize that it's nothing but pure chaos on the inside. The voices keep saying things to you which make you more worthless.

You make plans for your future but they simply remain as plans because you don't have the courage to execute them, no love, no support which helps you to stand up on your feet and tell you to keep going.

Trying to find solace in music as a complete diversion because without it, I'm nothing but skin and bones with a chaotic mind. A complete diversion is all we need to stay alive because without that we would be dead by now.

This is me telling you to stay alive because I don't have the courage to live without a diversion. Find it, fight it but don't let it take your life.

Just stay alive, it will be fine. I know how worse things can get.

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