You're Special To Me
Met you on my first day of college and I never knew that we would be such close friends in the coming days. Days passed by and we grew closer and our bond grew stronger. That was the time when I realised that how much I wanted to have you in my life. You weren't just an ordinary friend or a chick next door who wanted to be popular at any risk. You were pretty much normal and pretty much sane. When I moved from Mumbai, I just didn't find anything good about this city until I joined college and got the opportunity to know you.
We hung out, bunked classes and spent time with each other, shared our fears and thoughts, our misery was nothing when we were together and we always had each other's back no matter what. From being close friends we became hoes before bros and I literally enjoyed every aspect of our relationship. You were that little sister that I never had and I was glad that you were there for me in times of trouble. Slowly the days passed by and days turned into months, we completed one year of bachelor's degree.
Second year started and you found new friends and I got busy with my studies, watching you enjoy with new people made me feel a bit jealous because part of me wanted to be that person with whom you share your happiness but maybe I was asking for too much. I just wanted you to be safe but on the other hand I also wanted you to experience the new world with different people who came and went from your life. There was a time when I had completely lost you and you were on the verge of being a memory in my life.
You disappeared from college and no one knew what was going on in your life, you had isolated yourself from everyone and you had your reasons to do that. I understand that you were going through a rough patch in your life which taught you nothing but the best lessons of your life which were filled with tears, sadness and pain. I know that you did not deserve any of it but life had plans for you.
Two years passed by and I graduated from college without you by my side and knowing that, bought me pain and tears that you weren't here with me. There was no way to contact you and part of me had just given up trying to be in touch with you. I swear I was done trying but deep down I was really worried about you. I would get news about you in bits and pieces from the people who were in your Snapchat list or even Instagram.
I was happy to know that you were doing fine and had a different life of your own with full of responsibilities. You were missed by me every single day and honestly I couldn't get over the fact that we were not the same like we were in college. I miss us, I miss talking to you constantly because that kept me busy from everything else. I am glad that finally we started talking all over again, though not like before but atleast in bits and pieces.
When I started working, I met this girl who had this resemblance of you and I tried so hard not to think of you but everytime she smiled and spoke that always reminded me of you as to how goofy you were, a bit short tempered, a bit sassy and an amazing person to be with. Till today I still try hard not to think of you when I look at her because everytime I look at her, all I see is the older version of you and it really breaks my heart because then it should have been you and not someone else. I can not be that free with someone who looks like you and is not you. I can not tell her how I feel the way I used to do with you.
Because you have always been the most precious person in my life and will always be. You mean so much to me and I am looking forward to spend time with you. I wanted to say that I am proud of you for all the things that you have achieved and have fought bravely against the hard times. You have become stronger than you were a few years back. You are the most beautiful woman and the most awesomest human ever.
I love you 💖 you are special to me 😘
We hung out, bunked classes and spent time with each other, shared our fears and thoughts, our misery was nothing when we were together and we always had each other's back no matter what. From being close friends we became hoes before bros and I literally enjoyed every aspect of our relationship. You were that little sister that I never had and I was glad that you were there for me in times of trouble. Slowly the days passed by and days turned into months, we completed one year of bachelor's degree.
Second year started and you found new friends and I got busy with my studies, watching you enjoy with new people made me feel a bit jealous because part of me wanted to be that person with whom you share your happiness but maybe I was asking for too much. I just wanted you to be safe but on the other hand I also wanted you to experience the new world with different people who came and went from your life. There was a time when I had completely lost you and you were on the verge of being a memory in my life.
You disappeared from college and no one knew what was going on in your life, you had isolated yourself from everyone and you had your reasons to do that. I understand that you were going through a rough patch in your life which taught you nothing but the best lessons of your life which were filled with tears, sadness and pain. I know that you did not deserve any of it but life had plans for you.
Two years passed by and I graduated from college without you by my side and knowing that, bought me pain and tears that you weren't here with me. There was no way to contact you and part of me had just given up trying to be in touch with you. I swear I was done trying but deep down I was really worried about you. I would get news about you in bits and pieces from the people who were in your Snapchat list or even Instagram.
I was happy to know that you were doing fine and had a different life of your own with full of responsibilities. You were missed by me every single day and honestly I couldn't get over the fact that we were not the same like we were in college. I miss us, I miss talking to you constantly because that kept me busy from everything else. I am glad that finally we started talking all over again, though not like before but atleast in bits and pieces.
When I started working, I met this girl who had this resemblance of you and I tried so hard not to think of you but everytime she smiled and spoke that always reminded me of you as to how goofy you were, a bit short tempered, a bit sassy and an amazing person to be with. Till today I still try hard not to think of you when I look at her because everytime I look at her, all I see is the older version of you and it really breaks my heart because then it should have been you and not someone else. I can not be that free with someone who looks like you and is not you. I can not tell her how I feel the way I used to do with you.
Because you have always been the most precious person in my life and will always be. You mean so much to me and I am looking forward to spend time with you. I wanted to say that I am proud of you for all the things that you have achieved and have fought bravely against the hard times. You have become stronger than you were a few years back. You are the most beautiful woman and the most awesomest human ever.
I love you 💖 you are special to me 😘
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